Thursday,December 25, 2025
Hello from massangoto! 🙋♂️✨
Good evening! It’s Thursday, 4:30 PM. This is massangoto! 🧑💻
I’ve recently resumed my weekly follower count update on X, and I’m happy to share that we’ve reached 5,027 followers! To all my followers: thank you so much! I am truly grateful. m(_ _)m
From Saturday through Monday, I had to take a break due to poor health and an injury to my lower back area. Fortunately, it wasn't a slipped disk (acute low back pain), so it’s healing faster than expected. I feel like I was being watched over. After consistently changing my medicated patches, I’m finally at a point where I don't need them anymore. I expect a full recovery very soon.
Reflections on Christmas 🎄
Today is Christmas! Merry Christmas to you all! I remember singing "Jingle Bells" and "Silent Night" when I was a child. In Japan, Christmas might exist more as a festive event than a religious concept. Personally, I think it’s a beautiful thing when people can celebrate the fact that we are all alive, transcending boundaries of religion, discrimination, or prejudice.
I want to convey that the world isn’t just made up of models or celebrities. Every single person has the right to live. Since developing my mental health condition, I have endured so much verbal abuse—sometimes it felt like "gaslighting." Even within my own mind, auditory hallucinations would hurl insults at me.
However, after many long years, those voices finally seem to be preparing to withdraw, almost like a "dream ending" to a long story. While I still hear them 365 days a year, I've noticed that their "standby time" has increased significantly when I am focusing on something or talking to others.
Living with Chronic Conditions
I live with three conditions that medicine can manage but not fully cure: Schizophrenia (auditory hallucinations), REM Sleep Behavior Disorder (which I suspect might be hypnic myoclonus), and I must take Levothyroxine for the rest of my life following a total thyroidectomy for Graves' disease. Despite this, I often find myself thinking that I am still very blessed in many ways.
Diet Milestones & Tips ⚖️
Now, it’s Christmas! Did you all enjoy some cake or chicken? They’re delicious, aren't they?
Regarding my diet: a few days ago, I finally reached my goal weight of 72.8 kg, down from a maximum of 106 kg! Curiously, because I ate a bit more that day, my weight was back up to 74.1 kg this morning. However, reaching my goal once has completely renewed my motivation. I will work hard to maintain my weight between 72 and 73 kg.
A small tip: I keep a loaf of bread in the freezer. When I’m starving and don’t know what to do, just toasting one slice helps me get through the hunger.
I actually had more I wanted to share, but I’ll save that for next Sunday... I plan to talk about Moraxella bacteria.
That’s all for this blog post! Let’s meet again next Sunday.
I wish you all a safe, healthy, and prosperous day.
This was massangoto! 🙋✨
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