Sunday,January 25, 2026
Good evening! It’s midnight on Sunday, massangoto here! 🧑💻
I’m happy to share that my X follower count has reached 5,563! Thank you so much to everyone for your continued support! m(_ _)m
I recently had a check-up at the neurology department. I told my doctor that while I still experienced two "shocks" over the past four weeks, the intensity has significantly decreased. In the beginning, I felt like I might actually die or even vomit blood, but now, although I still wake up startled, that life-threatening sensation is gone. Since the symptoms are weakening, we decided to continue with 1.5mg of Rivotril. I used to worry that medication was just masking the symptoms, but now I’m starting to feel hopeful that I might actually recover!
To prevent my physical condition from worsening and to manage sleep deprivation from REM Sleep Behavior Disorder, I start my morning and evening prayers around 3:30 PM and go to bed early at 4:00 PM.
Regarding my psychiatric care, I mentioned feeling a lack of motivation during the day. My doctor decided to split my morning dose of Risperidone, so I now take one tablet in the morning and one in the afternoon. I’ve set up a system at my mini-altar to organize all my meds—morning, Thyradin, afternoon, as-needed, and bedtime doses. I keep the empty packets to ensure I don’t miss any, and I even message a friend to confirm when I’ve taken them. This routine has helped stabilize my condition.
One challenge lately is "hallucinatory parodies." When I hear music at the supermarket, my mind creates parody versions that repeat endlessly for hours. Hallucinations usually weaken when I’m talking to someone or focusing on a task, but when I’m alone, they get persistent, questioning my every move. I guess it’s still better than years ago when I used to just scream at them to shut up!
As for my thyroid, my Thyradin levels are slightly suppressed, but since they are within the normal range, we’re staying the course.
That’s all for this week’s blog! See you next Sunday!
Wishing you all a week of safety, good health, and prosperity.
massangoto 🙋✨
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